Moments of Greatness

Here’s to looking forward to a New Year of living in the moment! 

Waiting - the word itself just seems so awful sometimes. 

Waiting to get in line at the post office to pick up a long awaited package that got missed being delivered straight to your home or to send out those Christmas cards that were supposed to be mailed two weeks ago. 

Waiting in the drive thru at Starbucks for your warm spicy chai latte. :) 

Waiting in the grocery store line wondering if you got in the wrong line again as the lady two people down from you pulls out a coupon book and her check book! 

Waiting for traffic to move. 

Waiting. 

Our entire life seem to be a series of times of waiting interrupted by moments of receiving, giving, accomplishing, achieving, or living. 

We wait expectantly. 

We wait faithfullly. 

We wait with hope. 

We wait in silence. 

We wait anxiously. 

We wait with joy. 

We wait excitedly. 

We wait with bated breath! 

We wait in suspense.

We wait on God. 

The definition of Wait |wāt|: to stay where one is or delay action until a particular
time or until something else happens; 

                           to remain in readiness for some purpose;       
                                             be left until a later time before being dealt with; 

Synonyms: remain, stay, rest, stop, halt, pause, linger, bide’s one’s time, deferred, delay, intermission, lull, hold on, long, pine, hiatus, gap, moratorium, recess...

We all wait with bated breath on the last day of a year expectantly waiting for another new year. 

Hoping that the blank canvas will be filled with vivid moments of brightness and cheer.

I am going to wait expectantly for the new and exciting. 

Knowing that God is always wanting to give us more than we can ever imagine simply because He loves us.

Yet, life is full of run of the mill mundane moments. 

I know that in each and everyone of those everyday ordinary moments is where I can allow God to be extraordinary. 
I can expect to find unforgettable, surprising joy, peace, faith, love, lessons for growth and miracles in the simple moments of my everyday life. 

More importantly, I hope you try to seek and linger in God’s presence in each moment and I’m sure you’ll be amazed and changed by what you find. 

Remain in His presence and you will find grace and strength to go through each moment of your life. 

Water, waves, and words

Remember when your parents took you to the beach and you ran towards the ocean excited to feel the sand between your little toes. You watched as the waters rushed forward and washed away the sand around your feet. As you looked out at the expanse, the sunlight danced upon the waves creating an illusion of serenity hiding the depths of the seas' ferocity. 

Well, that’s what I did. I dug my toes deep into that squishy soft sand to see how deep I had to get before I could just stand there rooted into the ground without letting the sea drag the sand away leaving me back on unstable ground. I stood there feeling the cool wet sand between my toes and the rush and tug of the swirling waters moving forward and then back. Appearing as if the sand and waters were dancing before me in some sort of savage waltz. I look up and marvel at this magnificent, beautiful, terrible sea, the waves rising up feigning to crash right over me. Yet, as the waves get closer, closer and closer still they shrink and with a force sweep over the sand pulling all before it into the deep. Knowing my parents and sister were close behind I would stand courageously before this wonder knowing no matter how deep I went in there was always someone looking out for me. I would stand there with my toes digging deeper into the sand, watching the swirling waters and the crashing waves before me. The beauty and majesty of God’s creation staring back at me. Blues and greens mingled  together with shimmers of white and yellow light, something so alluring yet so unknown. 

Now, as I step forward looking at a metaphorical majestic ocean of life, I dig deep into God’s word allowing my feet to be rooted and grounded. I run excitedly towards life’s oceans knowing that my Savior’s awesome presence is ever near and as I look up at those waves I know they will shrink as they get closer. Though the waves may come with a force trying to pull and drag all before it, I can stand. 

Hello Love

I like to write.

I like to hope and dream.

I like to imagine that I can be an inspiration and a blessing to those I may meet.

I like to hope the thoughts I express in paragraphs and prose turn into poetic muse.

I like how this past year has been full of life-changing moments.

I like how when I meet a new friend or person along this life’s journey, a new memory of affect is created.

I like how it’s through life’s momentary meeting’s I can encounter an encouraging word, an inspiring story, a laugh, a smile, a burden to share or a lesson to learn. 

I like how just when I think I have placed God in the center of my life He yet again turns everything inside out.

I like how I have to grow each day, learning to draw grace and strength from deep within.

I like how I soak up inspiration from my Creator.

I like how much I love and need the Lord my God.

I love how much my God means to me and how much faith I place in Him alone.

I love how I find comfort and meaning to life through my relationship with the God I believe in.

I love how I never have to stand alone.

I love the freedom and peace I find in my Saviour.

I love Jesus and all that His name encompasses.

I love how crazy and strange it may be to say all of this and know that I am unique.

I am thankful for Love that gives me air to breathe.

I am thankful that God is love. 

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Quiet Confidence

People may write me off as the best quiet spirit, naysayers may say my personality needs to change and is one not many would want to hire, people may say you’re aiming too high, maybe you should try doing something easier, maybe you should stop trying to achieve this dream of yours, maybe...the list can go on and on. The world is full of negative naysayers always unwilling to accept the best for others or they think they need to offer ‘good advice’. The one thing they don’t know is that their words of negativity or what may be meant to deter me only fuels the fire in my belly even more. I haven’t come this far floating on clouds, it’s been pure determination and confidence not in myself alone but in something far greater. It is a courage to attempt to accomplish the desires that burn in me that God alone placed and is faithful to complete. It is with a quiet and calm confidence in One who is more than enough that propels me further not for myself but to give of myself and whatever I can offer to live a life worthy of a love and salvation given so freely for me...and for you. 

Yes, it may hurt to hear the negative but it doesn’t really matter what other’s think, say, or do if you have placed your confidence in the Creator of life, dreams, vision, creativity, and all things beautifully set apart for the praise of His glory.

The best thing about my kind of confidence is that I don’t place it in a fading outer appearance, a vast educational knowledge or intelligence or degrees, riches, social status, awards, and accomplishments. My confidence is in One whose beauty never fades, a love that never fails, a joy that runs deeper, a peace that cannot be shaken, a wisdom none can comprehend, a strength that goes beyond the physical, and an abundance of life that flows not out of momentary happiness but is rooted in faith. 

It is scary stepping out of your comfort zone but all it takes is one step. That is all I do, take one step at a time confident in my faith; confident that the desires I have are God given; confident that in my daily mundane life, is where moments of God’s greatness can be revealed. I am confident that there is an ever growing amount of learning to be done but I am also confident that the doors God opens present challenges that will come with joys of seeing more of what God can accomplish through ordinary people believing in an extraordinary God. 

-I hope you know how much God loves you!

Love

I do not want to fall away from you, Lord. I look neither to the left nor to the right. I look to You, Lord. Who can walk this path alone? Thank God gravity pulls me towards your nail scarred hands.

Do you have the faith to believe? Remember the stories of the Bible and place your faith in them…in God. In the strength the Lord gave Sampson to destroy the Philistines. As Sampson looked to heaven crying out in repentance, saying, “God grant me this one last time! Forgive me! Use me to do your final work in my life!” Sampson leaned forward; sweat pouring from his forehead as he pushed with every fiber of his God given strength, the pillars creaked and groaned collapsing into dust and rubble. 

Do you believe in the faith God gave Ruth? Her very obedience to follow YHWEH into a foreign land was the action of simple faith. A widow of the accursed Moabite peoples, she followed her mother-in-law to embrace the very land and people who rejected her heritage. Ruth became a woman known throughout this new land because of her character and was woven into the bloodline of our Savior Jesus. Her destiny unfolded in God’s perfect time, best of all in God’s perfect way.

Salvation from a life of bondage was given to Rahab, a harlot. Whose very own household became the sole survivors of the city of Jericho. Do you put your faith in this freedom? 

I read of how it is written, “I am the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.” The same God who promised to Abraham his very seed would outnumber the stars in the sky is the same God I put my trust in. Do you? 

I remember the promises He gave to Esther, Paul, Jeremiah, and Abraham. These are the promises of salvation from destruction, promises of a calling to preach the Gospel to the ends of the world, a promise of a hope and future. I remember the stories, these words of the Bible, this love poured out in blood for me…for you. 

Love’s own hand writes your future. Your very days are ordained, each moment known before one even passed. Remember the promises of the past; they are the keys to your future. It is never too late to follow in the footsteps of our Savior. Never too late to choose life, it is never too late to believe. 

Psalms 139: 15 – 16 “You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.”(NLT)

Travels

Spring brings about rain, flowers, and the hope of long summer days. Summer's laden with promises of fun in the sun but to me the need to travel is once again rising up within me. In my mind's eye I picture the lush, green vegetation that surrounds the valleys in central Sri Lanka to the big bold city lights with the sounds of car horns, people shouting and police sirens wailing. Then the canvas changes to the muddy yellow colors of the sands of the African deserts’ intensity draining you of energy as the sun joins in the promotion of the suffocating heat. 

There is beauty in the rain pouring down from the heavens in the cool of an African night. Our eyes appear wider as the variety of huge colorful lizards lay in silent wait for the ceasing of the rains. The architectural highlights of each country beckon the aimless wanderers. Malaysia’s own twin towers, Japan’s sophisticated streets, or England’s familiar Big Ben. 

The masses of humanity throng dangerously close to each other as the smells tear through ones mind. The images, sounds, and scents forever embedded into one’s memory. Who can forget the first time they walked through the white sands to the blue oceans of Hawaii’s magnificent beaches, gingerly stepped down the stairs to India’s slums, ran through the streams in South Korea’s prayer mountains, or climbed to the most breathtaking view from the height of Sigiriya’s leveled peak? 

If one looks closely, they find uniqueness in faces of the masses that pass by. In a small village on the outskirts of a city in Nigeria, men, women, and children live, work, and survive. They go about their daily activities of school and work in the fields, never venturing outside the perimeter of their village. In the open Chapel area on a breezy afternoon, they sing and praise the Lord with faith and passion. Here they reside, shunned by society. Outcasts. Their decomposing bodies a shocking sight to others around. They are a community of lepers, worshipping the Lord amid their poverty and lack of a dignified place in society. 

Contentment that is what I saw in the lives of the leper community. It stems from knowing who you are in Christ Jesus. There is nothing else, how can there be when everyday, your very life is decaying, literally before your eyes? Yet there is this contentment. 

Do you let yourself identify with your circumstances, your ideals, your status symbols? Are you letting culture dominate your life or is it your religion? Let your relationship with Christ deepen so that you learn to identify with Him. Then no matter what cross you have to bear that day, you have the confidence to face it, knowing who you are in Christ.

There is something about us humans that draws us to higher heights, constantly trying to outdo our last success. Never satisfied with what we have, always striving for what is thought to be better. Why else would this constant need for travel, change, and better things be driving our lives? People travel aimlessly everyday, consuming the latest and the greatest, living for nothing. Go, travel, live, give, love, and learn, but know that there is always a greater impact in other’s lives when you live for Christ. To live is Christ, to die is gain. To truly live with passion for life, with satisfaction in our every single action, is to live in Christ. 

There is one question that I have to ask myself at the end of the day, am I content in Christ? What are my motives? I know I will never be satisfied no matter how many countries I set foot in, or how many frames I hang on my walls, or whether I get the right career, and life, unless I first allow myself to be content in the arms of Christ.

Though it has been the loneliest and most difficult year of my life, God has proven so faithful! He continues to amaze me with His love and goodness. People are fickle, life is hard but God knows just where you supposed to be and who you are meant to be.

Thank the Lord, He placed me close to my family! This year would be so much harder without them.

'They', whoever 'they' are, were right, going through PA school is hard. I thought I'd make friends and we could go through this tough test of studying medicine together but I've found that the only one I can truly depend on is the Lord alone. Friends may come and go but very few will put aside their selfishness and jealously to really stand with you through the years. I treasure my friendships that have lasted through years, some since childhood, some since high school, some since college. Though we do not communicate often, when we meet up it's like we never missed a day away! True friends are hard to find. Sometimes though we need to learn to completely trust in God alone. It's never people, past successes, our own intelligence, money, status, or stuff that can ever save us, nothing but the blood of Jesus. Nothing but the name of Jesus, nothing but the Lord God my Savior can save us. Yes, it is my complete belief in a loving, Heavenly Father God that is my light and my salvation through this life. Sometimes life draws us closer to our Maker. 

People or God, Fear or Faith

At times in life we need to go back to words of encouragement and faith. I like to go back to the Word of God, praise and worship, and messages that remind me of God's love and faithfulness. I was thinking of writing on faith, courage and fear as it's what I've been thinking about lately but it's still a work in progress. As I was opening up a new word document I went back to my previous writings to see if I had written something about this to see if I can encourage myself too! :) I ran across this piece of writing, it always encourages me. These words from one of my Dad's messages remind me of the story of our lives. Living out a life of faith and courage despite our human nature of fear and natural circumstances. I read these words and realize the greatness of God that has fulfilled His awesome promises in our lives. 

It doesn't matter what people say or do, doesn't matter if people reject you, gossip about you, or turn their backs to you. It doesn't matter where you come from, your past or present or what your qualifications are. God uses a widow's mite, the young and old, the rich and poor, a fearful young man, an orphan girl and the foolish of this world to confound the wise. There are precious seasons in our lives that we go through, taking us to a greater level in our life in Christ. The path is lonely, wearisome, rocky and a little scary but it's a challenge you courageously step into. Take 'Courage, Dear Heart' and be sure that the voice you hear guiding you through this stormy path is a Great One in whom your faith is placed. 

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"The Story of Our Lives"

The smell of the stuffy confined quarters of the press was almost suffocating. The fermenting odors of the wine enveloping the young man, bent over, threshing wheat. He was hiding from his Nation’s oppressors. Suddenly someone appears seemingly from nowhere and calls him, “mighty warrior”. This young man did not seem like a mighty man of valor, he was hiding in his father’s winepress, he doubted the Angel of the Lord, was depressed and honestly he had little bit of an inferiority complex! Yet Gideon was whom the Lord had used to lead an army of 300 men to restore a Nation. 

Elegant, rich tapestries decorated the place she was now residing in, the opulence and grandeur was overwhelming. She had no father, nor mother. A relative raised her in humble surroundings, nothing like what encased her now. Her background and ethnicity kept a secret so she could stay alive. Her beauty may have been what caught one’s eye, but character set her apart. Her obedience and courage allowed God to use her to save a Nation. 

With war at their borders and fear in their hearts, Jehosophat faced the unknown but believed in a known and awesome God. Facing the battle at hand the King took up the challenge placed before him and sought something, someone greater. Gathering all, they fought first on their knees, knowing victory is only given through God their Savior. 

Every individual person has the call of God on his or her life; that is their significance in God’s kingdom. We all experience fear when we face new challenges and responsibilities but it is the way in which we approach them that makes the difference. There are times we all want to do something but feel inadequate. Surprisingly all it takes is just one small step forward to change the way we think and the ability to seek God’s counsel, to organize and be aligned with Heavenly guidance, as Gideon, Esther and Jehosophat did.

Esther took the leadership challenge placed before her; she did not surrender her leadership or faith to fears or the law. God has given each of us a challenge and call on our lives; He has also given us all we need. Each one of us has to step out of our comfort zones to complete God’s call on our life, which is our significant contribution in God’s Kingdom.

Do we first come together and seek God’s counsel as Esther did and even as Jehosophat did? As we face these challenges, we put our faith in the God who alone created the heavens and the earth.

- Faith, is not surrendering to the outside forces.
- Faith, is saying, “If I perish, I perish. I know the Lord will make a way for me.”
- Faith, is not surrendering to faces by saying, “How can I go to this person?”
- Faith, is not surrendering to obstacles or frustrations.
- Do not surrender faith to fears.
- Do not surrender to fatigue!
- Faith, is not surrendering to falsehoods. In reality, we may not have the ability to go to the king and redeem the people, but Faith is trusting in the un-provable.
- Faith, is not surrendering to forecasts of what people may say.
- Do not surrender to fracturing experiences, flattering experiences, or fantasies. They may lead you away from God’s plan. 

Do surrender your faith to God. Faith is saying I am coming in the Name of my God; as David in the Bible ran toward Goliath with a small slingshot and five smooth stones. 

God overcomes human weakness and failure to elevate our position and rank all the way to His throne room. You can never underestimate the potential of one encounter. A few moments in the presence of the King of Kings (God who alone created the heavens and the earth) can change your destiny. 

Speak now or forever hold our peace…

I remembered this piece I wrote a couple of years ago for IPF and wanted to re-post it as it seems relevant.


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Looking out the window one can see the bombed out buildings all the way down the deserted city street. Only a few women and children scurry out quickly to gather necessities back home. Men cautiously walk through the streets to complete their business for the day. Few of the beautiful architectural structures that once stood prominently representing its cultural heritage now lay in rubble. The landscapes which captured the hearts of many a traveler are hidden under the dense atmosphere of war and terror. Armies and soldiers set the ambiance wielding weapons that make our hearts beat just a little faster with apprehension. 

Destroyed by the years of war the historical Churches now remain in pieces of its previous magnificence. History is taking an unprecedented turn to another continuous bout of political tension. Freedom now lies only in the hearts of the people. Salvation is not heard from the voices now silenced. Courage tested by cowering under tables while the walls tremble from gun shots. 

I see today a multitude of countries and people facing this daily torment of uncertainty. Where are the Christians? The tables are turning; the stones are now being cast at those who are standing up for faith and truth. Lives are lost without knowing the salvation in the name of Jesus. We live in a place where one would rather conform than be set apart. They conform to the images and status quo of the media and societies opinion. 

What do you see? More importantly what do you do? 

Where are you going in life? Who are you inspiring in this life? What are you doing for…yourself...or for the Lord? 

Speak now or forever hold your piece. There is no other time than this. Speak up for those losing their souls. Do not keep quiet for what…a short period of pleasure? 

There’s more to life than [insert here any number of the short lived pleasures pushed and vouched for the infamous and jaded glamor of this world] Why go with the status quo? Why not live to be different, to realize our real purpose in life is to worship the Lord. To have abundant life through His unfailing love and grace. Why go with the flow, when we can be so much more?

I see hope…a hope for our future. Do not give in, do not give up, and do not keep quiet. Speak up for Christ. We live not for ourselves but for others; that is what we are all about, not trying to be like anyone else, just Jesus. We should stick out, our words, our actions; our character should resemble the beat, the music, the dance, of a different drummer. Why push the boundary line? Get to a place where beneficial versus permissible is clearly understood. Millions are lost and billions more are waiting. 

“…And they are waiting for you, waiting for me; to open our hands so He can pour them [God’s love] out. But why would God trust us with these treasures these precious children of His? Because God calls us family, He can trust us. Because we have seen the otherness of God and we long for more! For if you, God, were the same as the rest You would not be holy and my un-holiness craves your holiness, your cleansing. You!  

Then in the process, we become ‘other’ ourselves; and the importance of that? [Otherness, is what we are about, to look outside ourselves and reach out with God’s love] There are so many stories [societal attractions] being told, vying for my affections, my passions, my heart, but I refuse to be caught up in the midst of small stories that seem brilliant at the moment, but soon become faded glory. I desire to be taken up into God’s story and into God [Your] great plot for me and mankind.  So I can leap into the chariot of fire. And I ask for humility and courage to leave it all behind. No matter the cost! Because Lord, You deserve it…and they need it. Because I love You…and they need You. 

And the spirit and the bride are still crying out…Come Lord Jesus and You will. You always do.”

Quoted from World Mandate 2005 – ACC, [Otherness]

Diseased but Not yet Deceased

Grumble, grumble, rumble, rant, the days go by on and on, the same old same old. Do this, do that, get it done; efficiently and fast. Go here, go there, pronto! No time to slack, no time to think, no time, no time. Quick, race, don’t pace, can’t escape the same old, same old. I am in a rut, stuck. God forgive me for living a mediocre selfish life! Why is it that every so often I find that I’ve forgotten…

Lord change me, help me to live this life for you all day, everyday. I go about robotic, cerebellar and spinal cord functioning, with minimal cortical input, managing to get by day by day; heart rate 70 beats per minute, respirations 20 per minute, blood pressure steady at 95/65, temperature is lukewarm but alert and oriented, I am not sure. Altered mental status showing signs of confusion with a life approaching comatose sedation and activities of daily living acceptable for the mundane.

Infuse me, God, with a life giving, revitalizing dose of fluids from the springs of living water and the power of the Holy Spirit. Transfuse me with the cleansing, sanctifying blood of Jesus.

My life depends on this life changing procedure, seconds pass and my life fades. Normal sinus rhythm changes as my blood pressure drops with the ECG showing a chaotic wavy baseline. An infection of lackluster disillusionment and self-gratification has spread to the heart.

Delusions of myself diminish as the transfusion of life giving love flows through my veins. Let me give of myself and all I have to You – for You. I remember what I’ve forgotten. I forgot others. I forgot to live focused on God’s love, goodness, and power. Now all I hope to forget is myself so that I live not in a delirium, hallucinating what I imagine my life to be but become alert and oriented to God’s timing, place, and the people He plants in my life for each season and His reasons.

Heart after God

The damp grass shimmers in the sunlight surrounding the sets of swings, slides, and merry go round. A kaleidoscope of vibrant colors contrast and complement each other against the grassy green background. Little girls dance, run, and play squealing with laughter and joy as their Daddy teaches them to fly a kite and kick a soccer ball. Hearts are happy and content in the sunny little playground.

One little girl sprawled out on the floor her hands cupped under her chin, the other sits cross-legged leaning against the couch both eagerly listening to their parents.

The little family of four sits in the early morning hours to pray. Their father reads from the Good Book and tells them about a King hard hearted not willing to listen to the Savior. This kings actions ended up destroying a nation. Another King ruled his kingdom heart wide open and malleable allowing God to rule and reign in and through him. His actions gave him the honor of being known as a man after God’s own heart.

The girls grow up learning to depend on a faithful Heavenly Father with hearts wide open. Words and instructions on living out lives totally and wholly dependent on the freedom they find in trusting a loving God and Savior, ring out from within.

Five years go by since the passing of their dear Father; he was one who through actions showed a heart full of deep faith and love that impacted nations. A Dad who imparted a legacy worth far more than any of the riches in this world. Forever the girls remember the heart of a loving father.   

For a Dad who really lived a life poured out completely for others.

Ephesians 3: 16-21

16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

 20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.